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Lord, why am I irritated???

 

Eli answered, “Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him.”  She said, “May your servant find favor in your eyes.” Then she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast.
1 Samuel 1:17-18 (NIV)

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The story of Hannah, first wife of Elkanah, is found in 1 Samuel 1. Before reading further, get your bible out and visit a bit with Hannah or if preferred, you can click on this link and sit with her online: story of Hannah.

Hannah was an amazing woman who had lots (and I mean lots) going on in her life. Let’s analyse 1 Samuel 1:1-20 to get a better picture.

  • He had two wives; one was called Hannah and the other Peninnah. Hannah was one of TWO wives.  This meant that even though she didn’t have an ‘outside woman’ situation she certainly had an ‘inside woman’ problem.
  • Peninnah had children, but Hannah had none.  And Hannah really really, like really, wanted to have children.
  • Because the Lord had closed Hannah’s womb, her rival kept provoking her in order to irritate her. This went on year after year.  We women can be cruel to each other sometimes; deliberately so, especially when we are familiar with a personal circumstance. Why again exactly? And why keep digging it in year after year after year? Does provocation for a positive family life make? Absolutely not.
  • Her husband Elkanah would say to her, “Hannah, why are you weeping? Why don’t you eat? Why are you downhearted? Don’t I mean more to you than ten sons?”  Elkanah loved Hannah but he just didn’t understand what she was going through aka sometimes men mean well but they just don’t get it all of the time.
  • As she kept on praying to the Lord, Eli observed her mouth.  Hannah was praying in her heart, and her lips were moving but her voice was not heard. When the going gets tough the tough get going. However that does not mean we pick up the phone and bemoan our situation with all of our girlfriends.  No, no, no.  We can be going through the biggest trial ever and praying fervently in our hearts without anyone else learning about our situation through any actual dialogue. Yet God knows what is in our hearts; He will hear us.
  • Eli thought she was drunk and said to her, “How long are you going to stay drunk? Put away your wine.”  I personally didn’t follow this line of thought because I talk to myself and to God out loud – like constantly – but I am not drunk. Why did Eli assume Hannah was drunk? Was it a cultural thing? Hmmm ….
  • “Do not take your servant for a wicked woman; I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief.”  Anguish and grief. Two of the biggest things to lay on anyone’s heart, far less a woman who has no children, is being taunted day in and day out by another woman in her very own household (and who should honestly know better) but yet her loving husband does nothing to resolve the conflict.
  • Eli answered, “Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him.”  This was all Hannah needed to hear from the man of God. There was now hope in spite of a seemingly hopeless situation. It had been proclaimed.
  • She said, “May your servant find favor in your eyes.” Then she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast.  Hannah had prayed and gotten reassurance that God had not forgotten her. What does she do next? She moves on and lets God do what He needs to do. In other words, He’s got this!
  • Early the next morning they arose and worshiped before the Lord and then went back to their home at Ramah. Elkanah made love to his wife Hannah, and the Lord remembered her. So in the course of time Hannah became pregnant and gave birth to a son. She named him Samuel, saying, “Because I asked the Lord for him.”   Let the people say amen … and take that Peninnah!

I love a story with a happy fulfilling ending and my key nuggets from these verses may not be the same as yours but where am I right now? I am praying like Hannah to my Father; my lips are definitely moving fervently and my heart is anguished (no grief here though) yet I am holding on to these three thoughts:

  1. God will grant me what I ask of Him (if it be His will of course)
  2.  I will be peaceful while I wait and not be anxious or disagreeable or whiny
  3.  The Lord WILL remember me

If you are like Hannah, I will be praying for you even as you pray for me. May the God of heaven and earth grant you what you have asked of Him, and may He always dwell peacefully in the depths of your heart. Have a great week.

When the bull had been sacrificed, they brought the boy to Eli, and she said to him, “Pardon me, my lord. As surely as you live, I am the woman who stood here beside you praying to the Lord. I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the Lord. For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord.” And he worshiped the Lord there.
1 Samuel 1:2-28 (NIV)

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To Love Is To Have Courage

Today is International Women’s Day and for months I struggled to decide on the exact message I wanted to share. How could I inspire women, encourage them to be bolder, stronger, even happier?  I suffered from word paralysis.

Then I came across this touching post on Serendipitydodah entitled “Love Is Very Much Like Courage” written by Meredith Indermaur. Now I have too many words but her’s are most powerful of all, not only as a mom but as a Christian mom having to go out there and find the courage to love – selflessly and unconditionally. You may have to read it more than once but that’s about all I’m going to say (I personally hate spoilers).

To all women, let us be feminine while being fierce and fearless. Let us uplift other women while walking equally with men. Let us be the example of leadership the world continues to look for especially today and may our light shine brightest when life is at its darkest.

Happy International Women’s Day … go out and celebrate with another amazingly awesome woman – because you can 🙂


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The Time I Was Crowned A ‘Phenomenal Woman’ – A Podcast Interview

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“The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering.” ~ Ben Okri

 

I was humbled to be interviewed by Janice Sutherland, as part of her Phenomenal Woman Podcast project. I honestly do not consider myself phenomenal in any way. I’m just an ordinary girl with ordinary thoughts trying to make it through an ordinary life … but isn’t that most of us? We don’t have to be abused, homeless or poor to be trying to get by. We don’t have to be mentally ill or over weight or old to be trying to make our lives better. We can have regrets but still get by – yes? Of course yes! We just have to be the most authentic version of ourselves. Continue reading